The gravity of it all June 23, 2010

The last barrier is gone, my visa was granted. Starting August 1st, I can go to Sweden.

The news arrived by e-mail, as always. Application for the master’s? Online, I only needed to send hardcopies by snailmail. Admission notice? E-mail. Admission letter? A PDF file, that was recognized by the consulate as an official document without any trouble. Apartment hunt? E-mail.  Of course I think all of that is pretty much awesome, but sometimes I miss having “real” papers in my hands…I must be addicted to bureocracy, maybe. This is gonna be solved soon though, as I’ve just sent my passport to the embassy so they can stamp it, and then I’ll finally have an official proof that yup, I’m going. :)

As soon as I get my passport back, I’ll buy my tickets; I’m planning to go by the start of august, so I can have some time to get to know the city, see Herman, request some documents and and join some long queues.

I feel butterflies in my belly…spent the entire day feeling nauseous. Took a look at the calendar, noticed that this month is about to end and from there on time will just fly. Finally I realized that well, I’m really moving out, that I will be completely alone for the first time ever…so much stuff in my head, I just understood the gravity of the situation.

Guess there’s no turning back now.

Been a long road to follow,

Been there and gone tomorrow

Without saying goodbye to yesterday.

Are the memories I hold still valid?

Or have the tears deluded them?

Maybe this time tomorrow,

The rain will cease to follow,

And the mist will fade into one more today.

Because the road keeps on telling me to go on…

Something is pulling me,

I feel the gravity of it all.

This song is stuck in my head.